Kristen's Wedding

I was honored to attend a Fellow Bloggers Wedding on Saturday. Kristen got married on Saturday and she looked AMAZING! Her wedding was a blast!

I know I haven't been blogging as much, but this event reminded me of all the great relationships this blog has brought me and I love you all! xoxo









My best friend John..why are all the HOT guys not straight?





Cheers to being single, sexy & Healthy!



Dirty Thirty!

My "Dirty Thirty" party was this weekend..I had a fabulous time.


Thirty, Flirty & oh so FABULOUS..thanks to the band..


These are the first pictures I have seen of my self and think wow, I am skinny. It's the weirdest thing to think out loud.

I had an aspirational goal for my 30th Birthday party...of 138 ..Saturday morning I weighed 138.2 and had even seen glimpse of 136/137 earlier in the week. This would out a doubt not be possible without my band. Have I worked my ass off, (literally I think I have).

My gay husband!



My best friends that threw my party



My Pretty! Came to celebrate





My Parents, My Stepmom  & Dad


Last but not least, this picture that I didn't put onto facebook..

DAMN! Thank you BAND!! :)

I am alive..just overwhelmed

The comments I recieved on my last post are overwhelming..I LOVE YOU LADIES!

Getting to attend the bandster brunch  in NYC on 3/20 was amazing and lifted my spirits.

I haven't been on blogs much as I haven't gotten my wireless internet hooked up at my parents. 

I have been trying to deal with my shit show of a life. It's hard. This past week has been extremely hard. I cry most days. My band is so tight from stress and having my period last week I could barely eat.  Yesterday I saw the lowest # on my scale in my life (136lbs), and I didn't even care because I am just so sad and stressed.

Tomorrow will be my first holiday seperated ( my 30th GULP) Birthday. And it's sad knowing I have to make plans, not just automatically have plans with my husband.

Thank You for all the support, I will be getting back into blogging soon..I promise.

I am getting a divorce.

I have been dreading this post. I haven't logged on in about 3 weeks, and the reason is I have seperated from my husband and we are getting divorced.

I haven't had the heart to log on here and share my news.. well because it's hard to write it out and actually say to people. And a part of me doesn't want to worry others because of the divorce rate related to WLS.

And I truly believe deep down that it doesn't have to do with me losing 100+ lbs. We had been trying to have a baby and my husband always talked about waiting..waiting for a house..waiting for the spring I am turning 30 and he turns 39 next month. And finally last month he said to me "You know if you get pregnant, it's all on you"  And that right there folks is why I am getting a divorce.  So with that repeating in my head ..I sat down and had a talk and deep down he really doesn't want children, he thought his mind would change (since I wanted children so badly) but the older he gets the less he wants them. 

So is it because I am happy with my body and confident that I decideded to take a stand for myself  and take a leap of fait to find a partner that wants the same things in life? maybe?

The next few months will be a rough road for me, I am losing the home I have made, and my best friend.

But ladies life is to short  NOT to be happy.

I am so very looking to seeing everyone who will be in NYC for brunch this sunday and BOY do I need a margarita.

NYC here I come!!

So thrilllllllllled to be coming for the NYC Brunch meet up!!

I can't wait to see some of my favorite bandsters!!

I can't wait for a prickly pear margarita and a side of guac!!

I will be traveling with Kristen and staying with Colleen Saturday night.

I will also be getting to see Angie! Who I haven't seen in 11 years since high school..And now we will both be bandsters!!

I love my band ..and this is why

I <3 my band!

I know we all say it 100 or 1 million times but MAN do I REALLY love my band. I have been afraid to blog about  it (for fear my band reads my blog)

My restricition is great, last fill was Oct. I believe I have around 7.8 ccs.

I hanging right around 143, 144 some days yesterday was 142. So EXTREMELY happy with how I am maintaining.  I am still counting my calories. I log them in on my phone or just make a mental head note and do not go above 1k calories. I think counting calories and working out is helping stay where I am. I still step on my scale every single day.

A lot of my fellow boobs will remember this red dress.. I FINALLY had an occasion to wear it...with my hubby out on Valentines Day.  This dress is truly magical hugs all my curves (even a good 10lbs less then in chicago). My friend gave me this dress and Kim K. owns this dress as well. It's truly a magical dress. I recieved so many compliments on  Monday evening.  As you know it is all couples out on Valentines Day, we were close to another table and the guy next to us leans over to Carey and says "Is she your #1? because she is #1 in THIS room!" I felt so embarresed for his wife, and then later on his says you look like Cameron Diaz..he made my night but I felt terrible for I am sure he made his wife feel uncomfortable.  MEN! 

Keep fighting the good fight ladies!  I am here reading and cheering you on! With Martini's of course ;)

100lbs Down!..newest member of the Century Club..

"You must do the thing you think you cannot do"~Eleanor Roosevelt

Today is the day I reached 100lbs down, a goal I never thought possible. At 243lbs reading that number on the scale in the DR office, I so well remember that moment. It wasn't a good one. 

My first goal was 155, the weight at which I met my husband, the weight I had met doing weight watchers 2x before.  (the goal I knew achievable)

Then with the help of my band I actually thought about 140's a weight I never ever remember weighing(except maybe in JR High)

My Surgery was August 24 2009.  My goal of 155 was reached September 3, 2010 read my goal post here.

My aspirational goal of 145 was reached X-Mas Week..my own X-Mas miracle. I could never get a 145 on the dot closest I saw was a 145.1 and then I was 144.

But today I saw it, I saw something I only dreamed about. CENTURY CLUB

And BOY did that moment feel so good.

This moment would not be possible without my band and my support from Blog Land..

And REMEMBER if you can DREAM IT..you CAN ACHIEVE IT.